Beautiful things in life come in many different forms. Beauty is most referred to be found in people's appearances, nature, and physical aspects of life. One thing many forget about is the beauty of one's heart, which is where true beauty is found.(John 7:24) Examining the inner-self is one of the most difficult things to do because one finds that it is filled with the sinful nature we were born with, (thanks Eve). As a Christian, I am called to defy ever sinful temptation and stand up and act upon what the Word of the Lord calls me to do. All Christians must act as disciples and preach the Word of God, but also shine as lights with the true beauty we all possess to love on one another and non-believers just as Christ loves us.
All of that is a lot to take in. Simple?-yes; Difficult?-only if you make it. Thank you Bryan, Karina, and Austin for making my idiot mind finally realize exactly what I've been missing about Christian life for 17 years. It has been in front of my face the whole time, I just couldn't let myself see clearly enough to figure that out. Serving this summer has been like no other way of serving I've experienced before. I've learned exactly what it means to serve: love God, and love others. Praise God that I finally registered that! How have I missed that, I have no honest idea. God just meant for this to be the time and place for my heart to finally truly desire all of what He asks me and all Christians to be. So now that the lightbulb has finally gone off, I have to admit the nervous emotions I now possess. What if I can't be selfless enough to complete the tasks at hand? What if I become sucked back into the routine I've been used to and I refuse to let my priorities be different? What if I lack the preparation of my heart to be able to do even a teensy bit of what I'm called to do?
To all of those questions and the many more I have, I know God is saying "Forget them and do as I say." Being a true servant of the Lord requires all of that and much more, and I just want to officially have the faith and perserverance to let God take me and use me. I don't care where anymore, I don't care how anymore, and I really don't care when. I just want to be used. So I'm saying to you readers that this blog is a special one for today. It's more of a prayer and presentation of how I am changing my heart to be closer to where it needs to be. Am I certain I can do everything the Lord wants for me?-no; Does that mean that I'll stop believing and give up the faith to try and finish them?-no; Will I finally ground my heart and mind in the Word and speak to the one who is dying to hear from me everyday because He sent His Son to die for me?-Absolutely and positively yes!
An amazing month this has been, and I'm looking forward to making this year one of the best of my life. I'll be praying that it doesn't stop after this year, and that I desire and grow even more towards Jesus for I know that He will never fail me. And He is the most beautiful thing I find in my inner self. That beauty is exactly what I want to find. Will you let that be the same for you?
